Merry Christmas to all and Wishes for a Successful 2015!
How do you define success? The world defines it as achieving a set goal, either your goals or others.
My goal was to be normal this year, ok you are all laughing because
I will never be normal, and like success, normal is different to everyone!
Normal to me prior to Sarcoidosis was doing everything for everyone, often doing 5 things at one time, and doing everything at my own above average expectations! You know Super mom!
Although I really didn’t believe when the Sarcoidosis Specialist said in one year I would be back to normal, part of me was hoping, wishing, wanting it to be true! I set it as a goal, a goal I couldn’t achieve!
Am I upset about what then world would say was failure ( lack of achieving success)? Nope because I have success, I just was confused about the goal part!
I can work a full day,
I can make suppers again,
I decorated my house on my own,
and wrapped the majority of the presents myself.
Sure I wasn’t in the hustle and bustle of spending days shopping, I may have to make simpler suppers, and have someone else still clean my home, but I achieved what I needed too, with out stress I didn’t need!
In November Todd and I spent the most relaxing vacation ever, we did shopping or other stuff in the morning, but the afternoons were spent reading and relaxing!
In the last year I learned life is about pacing and changing inconveniences like turning sleepless nights into opportunities ( you can shop online any time of day!)
Pacing involves finding ways to avoid stress, like signing your Christmas cards in February? Is there less love involved if I didn’t sign them in December?
I don’t believe that God failed me, I think the stress I put on myself is not what God would define as Success! So as we face another year are your goals achievable? Or even God honoring? Or even what is good for you?
I won’t deny, I want to be able to
Go shopping without exhaustion,
Be able to do more for others,
Breathe without Struggling
and I would LOVE to get rid of the latest symptom
(being off balance/ tipsy / swaying like a drunk)!
But I can successfully
be a good mother,
example to others
and efficient worker despite battling health issues!
So despite what the world sees as successful,
I can still achieve what God sees as successful and that’s all that matters!
So once again I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Successful 2015
(you just get to decide what that successful part means in your own life)!
Thanks to all my friends for all the prayers, love and support you have given me in the past 15 months of this journey!